I'm back home.
finally discharged from the hospital.
one whole week of my holidays blown inside the isolation ward. stoning, crying, feeling lonely, watching lousy television programmes wondering when the outside world would contact me and wondering where all my lovely friends are and what they were doing.
everyone said my illness is so random. it just happened. just like that.
haiz. after this whole episode, i did lots of thinking when i was alone in my ward and finally realised how much this whole experience meant to me.
it made me realise that anything unexpected can happen to us at anytime.
so it is very important to take care of your health at all times, keeping a balanced diet and sleeping early no matter how stressed you are in school that you have to keep late nights.
It was because my immune system was rlly damn weak and after I came into contact with someone with tb germs i got infected.
It's not gd to cause your parents uneccesary worry and make them suddenly blow a bomb on hospital bills after you yourself was irresponsible and neglected a slight cough by refusing to take medicine a few months before..which was wad happened to me.
That night when i had my relapse, i was crying while i apologised to my parents.
While my dad held my hand, I realised how important I was to them and told myself to stay strong. I had to fight tb.
The consequence of my irresponsibility? long term tb treatment for 3 to 6 months having to pop 14 pills a day which makes me so tired 24/7 and constant follow ups at tan tock seng.
the doctor was really puzzled at my condition. saying that it is rlly rare for someone my age to contract tb. and furthermore, i should not be having anymore relapses after taking medication as my healing process should be super fast for a person my age..that shows how weak my immunity was.
coughing blood at home is rlly depressing. bending over the sink watching chunks of blood flow is not fun at all. i remember myself shaking so hard and crying till i was breathless.
and my parents aren't exactly that kind who would react well in emergencies.
the first thought that came into my mind was that i am really a burden to my parents. another trip to the hospital meant a few thousand dollars more..
when i was admitted into the intensive care unit the night i had my relapse i really felt very weak seeing all the electrodes stuck to my body and all the wires attached to them measuring my heartbeat blood pressure and respiration on the monitor. everytime i coughed the beeping sound would suddenly be very fast and it was rlly one sleepless night.
and when i saw the worried look on my parents face i really felt like i was in a drama serial.
thoughout the whole 8 or 9 days i also saw the meaning of true friendship.
my mum told me this is the crucial moment when you huan4 nan4 jian4 zhen1 qing2.
every little thing of what my friends did for me..i would never forget every single person and what they did to prove they are true.
chris and jiexiang came all the way down from sengkang and jurong. and huishuang, kenny, my 2 cousins, xh, sharon, cheryl, fabian, my aunt and my uncle came to visit me too.
and thanks for all the concern from my whole class and even my ct daryl lim who wanted to come visit me. all the odacers, my odac teachers, my maths tuition teacher ms ong, jonah, meryl, pink, yingxiu, evadne, waikit, jenny..
celine, yaqi, zhao and cheryl who came to my house to visit.
thanks esp to cheryl..she rlly surprised me when she popped into my ward. and before she left she prayed for me..i was rlly super touched.
I know all of you are worried and concerned abt me..thank you for making me feel so loved through this difficult period.
and thank you kenny..for making my hospital stay seem so much more meaningful..
you are the best friend and neighbour i could have..
thanks for making the isolation ward seem so much brighter..
you make me feel my illness is not that depressing after all.
meanwhile..STAY HEALTHY PEOPLE. I'll be back in sch in another week's time.
posted by Zinc @ 11:24 PM
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